Sunday, September 21, 2008

Where Am I???

Iv been feeling very uneasy since I returned from Abu Dhabi. This feeling started on the plane back home. The feeling is one of disorientation.

I am at a loss to understand where I belong to or will belong to. I don't know if I belong in Tokyo or in Mumbai or in Abu Dhabi or in the US. I don't know whether I am coming or going. I don't know anymore which place to call home. I cannot tell where my next home will be in a month and where I will sleep. Will I be enjoying a home-cooked meal or as usual (in recent times), stepping into a diner to have dinner?

It might sound quite stupid to you, but I'm having a real crisis feeling disoriented thus. The thing that is keeping me sane is that I love my work and am immersing myself more and more into it to avoid thinking too much.

I just wonder how much more time till I have to face upto something that I have been putting off thinking about for sometime.

I'm looking forward to a short break from work where I don't have to travel back to Abu Dhabi (which might happen as soon as November for another 2-3 months). Just need to feel and let the feeling of security of being back in Mumbai at home (???) sink in and rest there.

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