Tuesday, July 31, 2007

My Name Is Naveen...

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road your trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit
Rest if you must, but don't you quit.

Life is queer with its twists and its turns,
As everyone of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about
When they might have won, had they stuck it out.
Don't give up though the pace seems slow,
You may succeed with another blow.

Often the struggler has given up
When he might have captured the victors cup;
And he learned too late when the night came down,
How close he was to the golden crown.

Success is failure turned inside out
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far;
So stick to the fight when your hardest hit,
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit!


You can take away all I have, you can never take away my will to work.
You can play games with me, you can never question my honesty.
You can kick me down, you can never keep me there.

I might bend, but I wont break... My name is Naveen.

Change...

What must one do when the root cause of ones misery is also the root cause of ones happiness? What must one do when the root cause of ones failure is also the root cause of ones achievements? What must one do when the root cause of ones problems is also the root solution to ones problems? What must one do when one is challenged with something one has not done in the last 23 years? What must one do when peace of mind is the price for peace at work? What must one do when cowardly silence is valued above brave honesty? What must one do when personal biases override professional accomplishments? What must one do when after all one has done, one is forced to pick up the pieces and get up bruised and battered? What must one do when one needs to learn politics in order to have peace of mind?

Work, here I come. Swamigale, please look after me...

Another Song...

Forget the video... Just the song please...

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

Old Memories and Some Great Music :)

As kids, we used to follow the WWE (then WWF) religiously, play trump cards with cousins and friends and watch each match, hoping for the hero to win :) Aah... the great old days!

DX


HBK



EDGE



3:16 - STONE COLD STEVE AUSTIN



Farewell President Kalam...

A fond farewell to one of the greatest Indians I have known. And I hope that India has many other great men like him coming up :) With this hope and belief, I present the song which was part of his final speech.

When You Wish Upon A Star

When you wish upon a star
Makes no difference who you are
Anything your heart desires
Will come to you

If your heart is in your dreams
No request is to extreme
When you wish upon a star
As dreamers do

Fate is kind
She brings to those who love
As sweet fullfillment of their secret drowns
Like a boat out of the blue
Fate steps in and see's you through

Moma when you wished upon a star
Your dreams come true

Fate is kind
She brings to those who love
As sweet fullfillment of their secret drowns
Like a boat out of the blue
Fate steps in and see's you through

Baby when you wish upon a star
Your dreams come true
When you wished upon a star
Makes no difference who you are
Your dreams come true

Close!

Bada mushkil din tha aaj. The best part of today was that it is over :) Good night!

Saturday, July 21, 2007

Of Loyalty, Commitment, Ownership, Professionalism...

Yesterday night, we were all sitting at Maya Restaurant past midnight. Dinner had just been completed and we were relaxing as normal on a Friday night. And then started a debate on the principles of someone wilfully quitting a site, the impact of such an act on the persons career within iflex, the merits of a managers perspective (good or bad) on such a person and many others.

Other points that came up were those of loyalty - of an organization towards its employees and the employee towards the organization; professionalism - representing the company best at the client-site; ownership - taking full commitment for a project and pushing it through.

A lot of points were discussed, some of them personal, and probably I wont be able to go into them here. Even our senior-most site manager, Nikhil san joined in our discussion.

It was a combination of pragmitism, optimism, pessimism, hope, anger, pride and many more emotions, which flowed freely. But the cake was taken by a couple of comments from the person whos been there, done that. He put into words a very simple principle we all probably already know or believe in. He simply said: "Guys, this is the time to work hard. For the next 6-7 years atleast, work without having too many thoughts of seeing too much money. But always believe that the good people will never be left behind."

Personally, I believe it this a lot. Loyalty and commitment to me mean trying your best at all times, irrespective of the rewards waiting for you in the near-term. What is the motivation? Money? No. Position? No. Power? No.

It probably just is that you have the opportunity to do something that tests your ability and if your ability is able to make something happen, then what more satisfaction can you hope for?

Timeless Classics... A John Denver Tribute

1. Country Roads



Almost heaven, west virginia
Blue ridge mountains
Shenandoah river -
Life is old there
Older than the trees
Younger than the mountains
Growin like a breeze

Country roads, take me home
To the place I belong
West virginia, mountain momma
Take me home, country roads

All my memories gathered round her
Miners lady, stranger to blue water
Dark and dusty, painted on the sky
Misty taste of moonshine
Teardrops in my eye

Country roads, take me home
To the place I belong
West virginia, mountain momma
Take me home, country roads

I hear her voice
In the mornin hour she calls me
The radio reminds me of my home far away
And drivin down the road I get a feelin
That I should have been home yesterday, yesterday

Country roads, take me home
To the place I belong
West virginia, mountain momma
Take me home, country roads

Country roads, take me home
To the place I belong
West virginia, mountain momma
Take me home, country roads
Take me home, now country roads
Take me home, now country roads

2. Leaving On A Jet Plane



All my bags are packed
Im ready to go
Im standin here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye
But the dawn is breakin
Its early morn
The taxis waitin
Hes blowin his horn
Already Im so lonesome
I could die

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that youll wait for me
Hold me like youll never let me go
cause Im leavin on a jet plane
Dont know when Ill be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

Theres so many times Ive let you down
So many times Ive played around
I tell you now, they dont mean a thing
Evry place I go, Ill think of you
Evry song I sing, Ill sing for you
When I come back, Ill bring your wedding ring

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that youll wait for me
Hold me like youll never let me go
cause Im leavin on a jet plane
Dont know when Ill be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

Now the time has come to leave you
One more time
Let me kiss you
Then close your eyes
Ill be on my way
Dream about the days to come
When I wont have to leave alone
About the times, I wont have to say

Oh, kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that youll wait for me
Hold me like youll never let me go
cause Im leavin on a jet plane
Dont know when Ill be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

But, Im leavin on a jet plane
Dont know when Ill be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

And click here to view another super-beautiful song (Surprise package for tonight :)

But It Rained...

Long live Parikrama...

Monday, July 16, 2007

Magical Moments

Aankhen bas bandh hain. Hosh aur aawaz nahi. Sirf mera dil sun raha hai. Ek zindagi bhi nyochavar ho jaaye is gaane pe. Shayad keemat kam hogi.

Allah, Ishwar, Rab, God. Jo bhi ho. Shayad inhi ki parchai honge.

A Fight To The Finish...

I have often wondered what life really is, like all of us do, sometimes or every time. I wonder what is my purpose here. If I wasn't here, how would that impact the cosmos. If there indeed is a cosmos or is it just plain chaos. Is there any need for me to be. Is there any reason for me not to be. These are just random thoughts. It's not like I want or particularly care for the answers. Over time life has made me draw my own conclusions and probably they are very different from what you have inferred.

Till a few years back, I used to want to die at 25. Out in a flash. Gone in a trace. Lived young, died young funda.

Why 25? I don't really know. Just a random number. Or maybe coz in cricket we used to have this quarter-century concept, where 25 was a minor milestone.

No. I wasn't suicidal. And no. It wasn't anything serious. Just a fanciful thought of the darker side of me. I felt that it was a good age to have experienced life and then go out. Didn't feel like seeing more of life was necessary.

But then, as life progressed, I started thinking that I was wrong to have such thoughts. I should not even be entertaining such thoughts. Don't know why, but I started looking forward to everything in life. I always did earlier too, just that now, I became attached to them. I loved getting up in the morning. Relished the new challenges each day brought me. Appreciated the beauty around me more. I began seeing that wanting to go early is a selfish thought. I began to realize that life isnt about the number of years lived, but how well youv lived each moment of it.

Probably in my search for answers, I go so involved with the small things that surrounded me, that I forgot the starting purpose for my quest. Probably, life just wrapped me in itself to show me its wondrous sights and sounds to tell me: "Hey hold on. I am gonna show you a much bigger, better and beautiful world than you imagine youv already seen."

Life is indeed so beautiful. It has so much beauty in it. Beauty of sights, sounds, countries, people. Even the challenges it throws at you are beautiful. Coz you get into them thinking how you will come out of them and lo... behold... you have conquered them.

Today, I want to be alive. Alive to be able to love my family that extra moment. Alive to enjoy myself and celebrate myself for who I am. Alive to be able to bring a smile to the faces of my family and friends through that single phone call. Alive to contribute to the productivity of my company. Alive to share jokes. Alive to enjoy a weekend and all the rest it brings. Alive to be able to teach and make some meaningful contributions to India someday. Alive to enjoy the music that extra moment.

Today, I want to be alive. My immature quest to go out at 25 showed to me that hidden meanings of life. It showed me that life has so much to offer me and so much I have to offer to this world.

Today I live life in the present. In the now. There is no past. There is no future. It is all about now. It is all about THIS moment!

My life has called. And I am meeting it with a smile :)

Sunday, July 15, 2007

Ek Pyar Ka Nagma Hai...

Zindagi aur... kuch bhi nahi... teri meri kahani hai...

Ae Zindagi Gale Laga Le...

Ae zindagi, gale laga le...
In khushiyon ko, mere pyaron se baatne ka mujhe mauka de.

Khushiyon mein bhi jo aansoon hai, bas in maukon par rakhna khayal mera.
Aur koi shikwa nahi tujhse. Bas jo ho raha hai hone de.

Duniya kitni badi hai, log kitne alag hain.
Ekta hai sabme. Ekjut kaise rehte hain.
Yeh sab baatein sikhai hai tune mujhe.

Aa gale laga mujhe.
Kamyabi ke shikhar par le aai hai tu mujhe.
Bada ehsaan raha hai sabka.
Ehsaanmand hoon main unka.

Bhoolunga nahi woh din jab andhera chaya tha charon taraf.
Par andhere se darrta bhi nahi hoon ab.

Khud par bharosa hai mohe.
Aur khud se zyaada apni kismat pe.

Ishwar mera saakshi hai. Jo kiya hai maine, sab ka chitta hai uske saamne.

Ae zindagi, aa mujhe gale laga le.
Aaj meri khushi ka baandh nahi.

Mudke dekhoon toh zubaan par ek muskurahat aa jaati hai.
Aaj mein zinda rehne ka aabhari hoon main.

Duniya mein kahin apni choti ek misaal bana li hai maine.
Par aage aur chalne ka raasta dikh raha hai mujhe.

Ae zindagi gale laga le.
Lamba safar hai aage mera.
Is safar par saath dena mera.

Raah chalta musafir hoon main.
Manzil ki raah par bhatakte hue.

Khwab toh hai anek. Manzilein bas ek.
Khushi. Sabke aur apne liye.

Himmat dena mujhe. Apna aashirwaad dena.
Mehnat meri pehchaan hai. Imaan mera dharam.

Ae zindagi gale laga le.
Tujhme panah dhoondta aaya hoon main.

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

Is This A Turning Point?

We received our performance appraisals today. And we got jacked royally. Why? I dont know. After hours and hours of tireless commitment and hard work, I got to hear: "Hey, there are many others like you. Stay in your place."

Yesterday, I was probably the happiest man on planet Earth. My system had a critical release going live, which was successful. In addition, I felt great when my friends Awadesh and Ganesh praised me, saying I was the heart of MobileBanking system. The praise and compliments felt good.

But, all the happiness came crashing down, when I was told that infact, my job was worthless and that I barely managed to keep my job infact.

Well, thats life I suppose. You are on top one day and at the bottom the next. And a managers perspective is so different from the ground reality. But from tonight, I am going into self-preservation mode. Now, I am in a dont-care state and I think, I have reached my breakpoint. I never thought this would happen, nor did I want this to happen. But my love for my project cannot prevent me from thinking "practically".

Forgive me MB. You know I always meant well.

P.S: May God be with the 7/11 blast victims and their families. Amen.

P.S: I completed 2 years in the industry today :) There are still some things to look forward to. This is just another learning along the way :)

Thursday, July 05, 2007

Bin Tum Jaaye Jiya Kaise, Kaise Jaaye Jiya Bin Tum :)

After very many years, heard this song on Youtube last night :) So here we go...

(Lets see who figures out the title :)

Sunday, July 01, 2007

Dreams... Dreams... Dreams...

Im listening to Konjam Nilavu from Thiruda Thiruda over my new wireless headphone. The sound quality is amazing and right now, I can feel the adrenaline pumping through my veins. Why? Its because I see some things that I have bought out of my earnings and they make me smile.

I see a beautiful and simple fan that is giving me cool air, the wireless headphone that is giving me beautiful music to listen to. And all of a sudden, I am feeling very empowered. Very empowered that today, I am the master of my destiny. Tonight, I feel at the top of my game. Maybe its because of the materialistic things that surround me. But, in essence, I am at the top of my game in the IT industry at my level (atleast in my mind.) I work hard, give full commitment and enjoy challenging work at most times. I have no illusions that I am the best, just that I have the opportunity to try my level best.

This stint in Tokyo has empowered me, financially, emotionally and most of all, has taught me to dream. And in the middle of those dreams, I found one very unlikely goal of life. Will want to invest the next few years to study the feasibility of this system in India and the technical details involved. Just let me know if you would be interested in browsing the web over your mobile phones and having access to a variety of life-improving services like mobile banking, movie bookings, getting financial advice over the net on your mobiles in real time, making travel arrangements for a holiday to Phuket while in the middle of a tour in Calcutta amongst others :)

Whenever I think, the game of football is always somewhere there on my mind. I just simply love the game more than life. Cricket comes a joint first too :)

Right now, I feel an optimism about my life similar to scoring the winning goal in World Cup final :) Its a joy best described by the following anecdote:

Sports Commentator 1: Hey X, see him go crazy after scoring that goal. I wonder what it is that prompts such wild celebrations?
Sports Commentator 2 (who's been a footballer): (Just smiles)

Ab toh aadat si hai mujhe...
Aise jeene mein

(Just smiles)