"I don't know that love changes. People change. Circumstances change."
- Nicolas Sparks
Monday, April 30, 2007
What is Greatness?
Greatness is comforting the people who need it the most, when they need it the most, without a care to what they can offer you in return.
Greatness is having it all and sharing it with those less fortunate.
Greatness is getting back up after getting beaten and striving to win (irrespective of the final result.)
Greatness is treating elders with kindness and respect.
Greatness is giving a damn to Society and what it thinks of you.
Greatness is to treat friends and loved ones with kindness and respect, no matter what stage of the relationship.
Greatness is pouring out a glass of water to a wounded enemy soldier.
Greatness is in sharing knowledge and not hoarding it.
Greatness is in trying honestly.
Greatness is in humility.
Greatness is in dignity under duress.
Greatness is a Parent.
Greatness is in truth.
Greatness is when the heart overcomes the deficiencies of ability.
Greatness is in following your dreams at all costs.
Greatness is in being loved by the one you love.
Greatness is in recognizing the contribution of the people who have made you.
Greatness is in fighting fair.
Greatness is staying true to yourself, true to your principles, under all pressures.
Greatness is to let go.
Greatness is nothing by itself.
Greatness is the journey. Greatness can never be the destination.
Sunday, April 29, 2007
I managed to fix an issue today that had been plaguing our system for the past month. Had tried all sorts of fixes but none worked. And last night, as I was at home, a probable solution struck me all of a sudden. It was a very simple and yet a very logical solution.
Came to office today and tried my approach. And voila! It worked. I was so damn excited. In my mind, I began to gloat.
However, after analyzing some more, I felt that I could optimize the fix more and create a foolproof solution. I tried it and it worked. And all my gloating came crashing down to the earth. I felt shattered that such a simple solution had eluded me over the past month. It was like having the wind knocked out of me.
I don't know why, that inspite of having fixed a super-critical issue, I am feeling down in the dumps because such a simple solution did not strike me.
I am re-evaluating the steps that I took previously in my failed attempts to solve this issue to analyze if there was an error in process of thoughts to fix this problem. I know I should have thought of this solution ages back, but what to do?
What's gone is gone. The system is working cleanly now. And I did manage to fix it.
Yet somehow, there is a void. I failed to fix it early on. It is my fault that I did not follow a proper thought process to analyze the root cause. My insufficient system knowledge (caused due to not reading the documentation end to end) led to my failure. I am feeling ashamed, gutted over my mistake.
I have made many professional mistakes (including the current one), which is fine. But somehow, I feel like I let down my team due to my lack of focus and improper processes.
I shall work hard to overcome this thought process error.
Saturday, April 28, 2007
Friday, April 27, 2007
At the vast open harbour waterline...
The day goes from blue to fiery to dark...
And I sit, without yesterday or tomorrow in sight.
Standing in the middle of vastness,
The only thoughts are of the ones who can't stand beside me.
Mind numbing loads, now replaced by a commitment to attempted excellence.
A sense of belonging,
A sense of longing.
I cannot stand beside my friends to comfort them.
I cannot stand beside my loved ones to comfort them.
A silent sigh and a strongly forgetful memory is all I have :)
Its not even about the money.
Its a mission. To finish what we have started.
Its a mission. To make people share the vision we have built.
Living with pain is an experience.
Pain is a lifetimes worth of experiences in a short while.
But what does not kill us only makes us stronger.
I just wish that we all would live this life with no sorrow and only joy.
But without a negative, how can we appreciate the value of our present?
Life is a story of second chances.
In sport, in love, in goals.
And the ones left standing arent the ones who remained unbeaten,
They are the ones who fell down, picked themselves up and aimed for the win.
Life in a nutshell, is about the well taken second chances.