Wednesday, January 31, 2007

Yehaw!

I'm so happy today :) So happy! So happy! So happy!

Don't even know why :) Or maybe I doooooooooooo :)

New Experiences...
Growing manifold :)

I haven't changed. Or maybe I have... Jo bhi ho... The heart is light and happy tonight... Knowing the future is not going to be faced alone :) God is with us...

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

Thankfulness...

I have a simple funda in life and that is to do the little things well and leave the big picture to the collaborative karma of the well done little things. Saves oneself the agony of feeling jealous or feeling unhappy seeing anyone else or their rewards. And makes you enjoy what you do a lot as well...

Tonight, I thank the Almighty above and also all the people who have blessed and helped me become someone in life and graced me with so much love and appreciation. I am truly very happy today, since I got the first ever appraisal of my life :)

I have received a healthy and substantial sum of money which helps me fulfill my humble objective of having enough money to have 2 square meals a day and a little more for timepass.

As for the times when we are hungry, love will keep us alive :)

A big congrats to my iLeap batch of Nov 2005 as well for all their appraisals :) Wish you all a lot of luck and hoping to hear a lot of us going on to do little things very well :)

Three cheers to us... :)

Monday, January 29, 2007

Success...

Success to me is... :)

Of Humbling Experiences

I had a wonderful discussion with Abhishek today. One of the most humble and sensible people I have been fortunate to meet and also one of the most successful people we are ever going to see. He stands out where we all follow the same lines and I really admire him for that. He brings down my ego a few notches without being rude and I really appreciate that about him.

Together we shall race against anyone who comes up against us boss :) You drive and I will navigate :)


I hope that Prasanna finds the strength in Sri Ranganathar in this time. Amen.

Sunday, January 28, 2007

To Forgive Is Divine... To Forget Is ???

When you make a mistake, don't look back at it long. Take the reason of the thing into your mind and then look forward. Mistakes are lessons of wisdom. The past cannot be changed. The future is yet in your power.

Saturday, January 27, 2007

STML

The term STML stands for Short Term Memory Loss. In the Tamil movie, Ghajini, Surya has played such a character, who cannot remember things more than 15 minutes and has to rely on Polaroid photos and other tools to help him remember people and situations. He researched a lot for this role and even visited some people suffering for it to study and portray the character.

The movie has Surya playing Sanjay Ramaswamy, a young, successful businessman. Kalpana, played by Asin, in order to get out of a tight spot, claims that she and Sanjay are in love, which they are not. Infact, she doesn't even know how Sanjay looks like and has never met him. On his way to confront her after seeing the news splashed in the media, Sanjay falls for her, without letting her know that he is a bigshot and she not even knowing the truth, and thinking him to be a rastachap guy, still falls for him too.

In an unfortunate sequence of events, Kalpana is killed and Sanjay is hit on the head during the scuffle, which causes him to start suffering from STML. He then vows to take revenge on the people who did this and the rest of the movie is about how he manages to do it.

The 2 songs are:

1. Suttum Vizhi - Sriram Parthasarathy and Bombay Jayashree



2. Oru Malai - Karthik

A Time To Change...

Was watching the movie Kakka Kakka tonight (and still am as a matter of fact) and this is a favourite song of mine from the movie.

The song is Uyirin Uyire from this movie. It is the opening song just after the start and boy! What an explosive start! I loved it...

Music is by Harris Jayaraj and singers are KK and Suchitra.

Friday, January 26, 2007

Dear Nallu Teacher

Dear Nallu Teacher,
Hi. Remember me? I am the little kid who joined KPS in the 2nd semester of Sr. KG. I completed a semesters portion in a week, and you were so happy that you loved me a lot.

You asked my mother to inculcate the reading habit in me, which has shaped my life today. People respect me, say that I am very smart/intelligent, say I speak very well, say that my ideas inspire them, say that I help them come out smiling after being down. But, they don't know that the foundation for all these outward things and for shaping me and my life was laid by you giving me the love and supporting and guiding me when I was a young kid.

My mother told me today that I owe my success in life and everything else to you and I will anyday say that she is 1000000% true and right. Not only my success, I owe everything in life to GODs such as yourself who walked into the life of a nobody like me and brightened it up so much that each day I wonder what right I must have done in all my previous births to deserve such kindness.

Dear Nallu teacher, then today when I am reaping the rewards of the conscientitious work that you did with me, why have you left me suddenly? Today when I am doing well in life, why are you not here to see it? Why are you all leaving me one by one, just when I have begun to show the results of all that you invested in me?

I wanted to come to Mithapur and meet you someday. I wanted to come back to my childhood and meet all of you who loved me so much and blessed me. Then why didn't you wait for me to come? I would have been so happy to see you.

Please tell me that you haven't left me... Please, please...

Tonight, my heart is broken Nallu teacher. I am not so strong. Who will I come home to now...

And yet, my mother tells me your son's story and tells me that life is such, it is destiny and one must take life as it comes. Tonight after a long time, teacher, I have cried.

I thought I would die a broken hearted man tonight, teacher. But, my mother is telling me that you are a noble soul and you will guide me from heaven now. I bow down to GOD tonight and I bow down to you too teacher.

I promise you that I will make full use of your blessings and work for others like you did. You gave many like me a chance at a good life, and lifted us from what we might always have been.

Dear Nallu teacher, this is my final good-bye to you. Here forward, I hope that I can live my life well and someday meet you in Heaven.

I will come with my English textbook again...

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

Nothing Much To Say, Not Much To Do

That's how Andy describes himself on Orkut. Andy - my friend, PL, mentor, hero...

Andy (aka Arindam) is a true Bong's Bong :) A lover of all things Bengali, a hardcore chai fanatic, non-veg lover. A cricket lover and a fellow Sourav Ganguly fanatic fan :) It felt so nice to have someone to share the stories of Dada's greatness with :)

He was also my project leader and friend and we shared the same lunch group with Chaddha, Gaurav, Ananya and Prakash bhai. Today was his last day in i-flex and I am sorry to see him go, but as someone put it, also it's good since he is happy to be going elsewhere.

I have received many uncalled for lectures from people on the need to stay calm and cool, but Andy taught it to me in a very brilliant manner. He led by example. I have never seen him ruffled, ever. I have never seen him raise his voice, ever. I have never seen him get into an argument, ever. All he did was make friends wherever he went and even in Tokyo, I hear a lot of good things about him from the people who knew him here (He was in Tokyo for 2 and a half years and worked in one of the most difficult and pressure-filled positions: Production Support) And he was one of the most humble guys I have ever known. Even though he is a Bond, he never made it seem such. You were always better than him, you always caught on faster than him, you always tried harder than him. While none of this was true, he made you feel like you had potential in you, he made you want to come to work and give it the best you got, he made you want to share jokes when times got rough, he made you think that doing big things was just routine. And he made you enjoy life like he did and honestly, he made you change your perspective on life like very few people can.

Andy is the sort of guy you need as a mentor in the early stages of your career, since it instills good habits like a cool and composed manner, leadership through example and putting a humane face to pressure filled work.

I have truly learnt a great deal from him and my tribute to him would be to emulate him...

Great luck dada... You are a shining star for us and surely going to be a shining star someday soon for the world too :)

Till our paths cross again... A heartfelt thank you and best wishes for your future...

Foolish Fellows

We watch downloaded FRIENDS episodes while having lunch and dinner and every time, without fail after seeing Jennifer Aniston, I tell myself... "Brad Pitt...Why?"

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

Mouna Ragam...

Mounam in Tamil means Silence and Ragam is the Tamil word for Raga or Raag as North Indians say it.

It is a Tamil movie that my mom loves a lot. I have seen it a few times and loved it. The Wikipedia article can be found here

Mouna Ragam is the story of of 3 people. Divya, Manohar and Chandru, played by Revathi, Kartik and Mohan.

Divya and Manohar are lovers facing parental opposition, because Manohar is not very well off.On the way to their court marriage, Manohar meets with an accident and dies. Divya is shattered and later marries Chandru, whom she doesn't love from the start. He is a well employed manager in Delhi. The couple moves to live in Delhi and there are a few comic moments showing the typical South Indian problems with Hindi as shown faced by Divya.

She makes it clear to Chandru that she is not interested in him and doesn't want to stay married to him. Chandru agrees and tells her that he is ready for a divorce, but legally it will take atleast a year for them to get the divorce. So, they decide to live under one roof, but aloof from each other.

Chandru is a kind man, but Divya treats his kindness with an uncaring attitude. In one of my most vivid scenes from the movie, it's breakfast time and Divya's parents have come to their home. Divya calls Chandru for breakfast, but he insults her in front of her parents and walks to his car to goto office. Divya gets angry and follows him and demands an explanation. Chandru says: "Nama pirinjapiraga, ava nanekyapradh, yella tapp onn mela taann..."(After we separate, your parents should not feel that the blame lies solely with you.)

Chandru faces Union problems at office and takes panga with the Union leader, who gets him beaten up by goons later. Chandru is badly hurt and rendered insufficient of taking care of himself. Now, Divya brings him home and starts treating him, tending to all his needs. Over time, Chandru recovers and soon it is time for their one year of marriage to be completed.

As per his word, Chandru gets the divorce papers with his signature and gives them to Divya and says that she is free to leave. Divya is to take the train to Madras. Chandru escorts her to he station and she boards the train. Once in the train, she wishes that she was not leaving him, and now regrets her actions and her asking him for a divorce.

In the final scenes of the movie, Chandru reaches home. He opens the door and inside, Divya is waiting for him. She got down after 2 stations and came home.

The song is Nilave Vaa from this movie. Music is by Illayaraja sir. Sung by SPB sir (S.P. Balasubramaniam). It is one of my favourites.

Appdi Podd...

Came across this. In addition to Japanese, I now have one more language to master :)

Alaipayuthe...

Alaipayuthe in Tamil means the movement of the waves... It has a beautiful, lyrical quality and I love the word.

It is also the name of a popular Tamil movie, directed by Mani Ratnam (Mani sir) with music by the incredibly gifted A.R.Rahman. It also has a very unique and (personally feel) fundu star cast of Madhavan and Shalini. I really loved the chemistry amongst them in this movie.

The song is Pachai Nirame...

Sunday, January 21, 2007

Unchained Melody...

Don't let the video distract you from one of the greatest songs of all times :)

My Mother's Words

To contradict my earlier post and to reset the things I have believed in life, here are my mothers words that she said to me tonight...

"one can even fight their destiny if u ask me..."

I have taken a small step towards that and henceforward, I know I have to fight my destiny if I want paradise... Wish me luck guys...

Saturday, January 20, 2007

The Fountainhead - Deja Vu

Two books that have influenced my life strongly are "The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People - Stephen Covey" and "The Fountainhead - Ayn Rand"

Stephen Covey's book helped me resurrect my life that was in shambles, going nowhere personally and professionally. It helped me sort out my priorities, see nothing but what I needed to see to stay afloat and instilled a sense of purpose and direction in me, which was powerful. And I have only read one chapter of that book and never touched it again till today. So you must be wondering why the title of the post is the name of the other book, when such a deep impact has been made by Book 1 :)

It is because the second book is the God by which I live my life today. The principles discussed in the book were so difficult that it took me a month of emotional turmoil to get through the book. I was absolutely fascinated by the characters, their motivations, their behaviours. I personally wanted to place myself in the shoes of the protagonist, Howard Roark, but there were elements of all the characters combined in various proportions in myself, I observed. So, in short, being the hero doesnt suit me :)

So why am I going back to it today? I don't know, but I think I know...

There is this character of Dominique Francon that is the epitome of perfection in a woman and flawless. I remember recommending this book to someone and after reading it, she said she liked the book too.

She came in like a breeze into my life and left like a storm. In the middle I spent about 3 very great years being friends with her. Knowing her helped me know myself better and iron out my insecurities.

All those meaningless laughters and PJs and sharing of dreams and just talking and going on forever, the concerts, the musical discussions, Niladri :), the fights, the make ups, the untold understanding, the breakup of that understanding, my silence when she wanted to say something, and finally her silence when I wanted to say something, and then... both our silences...

What does this have to do with the books? Good question...

I lost my Dominique Francon. But the circles of influence, as explained by Stephen Covey helps me say: "What's gone is gone and life is such... Tough luck..."

Sunday, January 14, 2007

A Life of Heart and Hope...

This is my 100th article :) I set up a domain name in Nov 2005 and started blogging in Dec 2005. What started out as a minor experiment has grown into an integral part of my life, where I voice my opinions, present cases the way I see them and give a medium to a love of mine: Writing.

Blogging has enabled me to explore the world sitting in my seat, understand the opinions of countless people across the world, get honest and critical information on subjects I have researched and above all, helped me grow as an individual, when I have sat down to write on a certain issue and debated it internally and many a time even changed my views to accomodate that which is principally correct.

A hundred articles is nothing. I know people who have written much much more and considerably better and amazingly. But still, we keep milestones for most things in life and a hundred being a round figure, so be it to look back and look forward.

I have seen amazing skill, word play, anguish, euphoria, biased views, practicality. Writing says so much about an individual... I have been able to look into the lives that people lead across the world, indulged myself with the photography they have done, learnt a bit more about my friends from the way they write... Basically more than giving anything back to anyone or society, I have been the receipient of many such experiences which have helped me grow constantly and just learn and enjoy some of all the beauty that exists in this glorious world of ours.

I have shared my views, fears, wins, disappointments, happiness, all seen through my eyes, and at each step, after writing and posting, I have felt a strange sense of calm. It's been almost like therapy, except that in this case, it is my own internalization of the concepts and the views and the principles I stand for, that have helped me fight out the cases in my own mind and derive conclusions

A few years back, my life was without direction or purpose. Living made no sense except for that I refused to quit, even though I wasn't knowing what would come tomorrow. It wasn't a life and I don't have a vocab good enough to describe it. But probably the words genesis and reincarnation would be coarsely close to the actual intended meaning. After that period, I see so many transformations in myself, so many ways that my thinking has changed. Somewhere the innocence died, and yet somewhere that was replaced by pragmatism and a long forgotten will power. One might call it an internal turn around.

By the time I started blogging, it was this new person writing his views, his ideas, sharing his aspirations, letting go of the past. There was a steel somewhere and God's protection, arising from the good deeds of people who have come before me. A thankfulness for the good things and a determined approach to face the world on my own terms. Somwhere, I would have loved not to change, because changing has meant accepting certain practical constraints as realities. Changing has helped me become more aware of the machinations of this world around me. But changing has also helped me know how to beat the odds and to believe in myself.

In life, people have tried to push me down using the maxim: "Majority wins." And they have been successful for the better part. I concede defeat and accept my failure and faults. But in my humble opinion, the heart is the strongest element of human existence. Whether it be an animal or Man. The heart sets us apart from everything that cannot feel. And I have always believed that even if the majority is against one, one must still always listen to the heart, because in most cases, the heart is never wrong.

People say I don't write for anyone other than myself and that I am a selfish writer who doesn't care for his readers. It is true probably, whether intended or otherwise. But for me, my blogging has always been a case of people reading and their hearts telling them whether to agree or disagree with me and my views, rather than being told to follow what the majority says.

I have nothing to set me apart from anyone else. I have n things wrong and wish to correct in myself. But I have a heart which is good. And I have hope...

For, when someone reads my post and later tells me: "Hey, I felt the same way you did... And reading your post made me feel positive." I feel a joy that somewhere we have shared a bit of our lives with each other. And I feel happy that somewhere I touched a heart. For in all the 100 articles uptil now, I have never "written" per se. I have only shared my heart's feelings and my hope for life with you...

Saturday, January 13, 2007

Learning Nihongo

I started with Nihongo classes from today. Nihongo in plain speak is "Japanese Language" in Japanese :) Go figure... It was an amazing start and I really enjoyed learning basic words for introducing oneself and some other words in regular conversations. We also started learning to read and write Japanese. It is a pictograph based language and we started with Hiragana characters today. I really enjoyed making the symbols and I hope that I can devote time to learn this beautiful language and develop it further :)

In a nutshell:

Hajimemashita (Hello)
Wata shi wa Naveen desu (My name is Naveen)
Indo jin desu (I am from India)
Engineer desu (I am an Engineer)

Kon ban wa (Goodnight) :)

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

When You Find Yourself...



GaarutoClyne on YouTube made the video



Song For Tonight

Find Yourself - Brad Paisley

When you find yourself
In some far off place
And it causes you to rethink some things
You start to sense that slowly
You're becoming someone else
And then you find yourself

When you make new friends in a brand new town
And you start to think about settlin' down
The things that would have been lost on you
Are now clear as a bell
And you find yourself
Yeah that's when you find yourself

Where you go through life
So sure of where you’re headin'
And you wind up lost and it's
The best thing that could have happened
‘Cause sometimes when you lose your way it's really just as well
Because you find yourself
Yeah that’s when you find yourself

When you meet the one
That you've been waitin' for
And she's everything that you want and more
You look at her and you finally start to live for some one else
And then you find yourself
That’s when you find yourself

When we go through life
So sure of where we're headin'
And we wind up lost and it's
The best thing that could have happened
‘Cause sometimes when you lose your way it's really just as well
Because you find yourself
Yeah that's when you find yourself

Monday, January 08, 2007

Pyar Ke Side Effects And Other Stories

Today, I watched the movie Pyar Ke Side Effects on the lappie. Wonderful story and amazingly realistic portrayal by the lead pair and others too... Urban India was represented the way it truly is and so simplistically. I must admit I wasn`t a great fan of Mallika Sherawat before I saw this movie, but I am converted now. As for Rahul Bose, he is in my opinion, the best actor in Indian cinema of the current generation and I have a great respect for him both personally and professionally... Truly fundu movie and I thoroughly enjoyed it.

I had been skiing on Jan 2nd to Gala Yuzawa and the photographs can be found at this link. The set also includes the photos from the New Years Party here that went on till 6 in the morning :) Infact it has become de rigeur that we sleep late and wake up late and the day goes on.

I have always thought of myself as a very responsible person, but it is only after coming so far, that I have realized what the word actually means and I pray everyday that I shall be capable of living upto its meaning henceforth.

I have a lot of questions unanswered in my mind and I am constantly seeking answers and reassurances for the same. But as always, nothing is in our hands and Que Sera Sera - whatever will be will be...

神ありがとう...

Wish You A Happy Happy Birthday!!!

Today is my dearest sister's birthday and it's the first time I am not home to celebrate it. I pray to the almighty above to grant her all her heart's desires and hope that I will be there to fulfill whatever little wants remain...