Friday, December 15, 2006

Japan Notes - Dwitiya

The joke doing the rounds at my site is that sending me to work is like Child Labour. Thats because I am the youngest person onsite here in terms of age and also the least experienced in the industry. My PM said that he passed out in 1998 and I make it seem like he is from another generation :)

Work has like always been hectic. Long hours at office under immense pressure to deliver results quickly. I faced my first such test on the last working day at 1 am in the night. Boy! I was unnerved and also calm at the same time. Unnerved by the fact that my application failed at a crucial stage and the impact it would have. And calm that my application was made well and that an external entity was causing it to break. All in all, we managed to do the required job and complete it. But that was the sign of things to come, I suppose.

It has been a case of long hours all the way through. This seems to be the work culture here and a norm rather than the exception. However, on weekends, I go to play Badminton at a club in an area called Tamachi. It is a sport I used to play during my Junior College days and was keen to restart to keep fit. It's another matter that I never got round to doing it while in India and am doing it after travelling so many miles.

The day goes in working and parallelly chatting with pals from the office PC. The office PC is my window to the outside world, since I don't have a computer at home yet. Am planning to buy a laptop soon and am looking at a Thinkpad as my to-buy option, even though it is very expensive, since this is a one-time investment for me, and the Thinkpad is the best there is. I should be going to Akihabara to do some research, even though that plan has been postponed a couple of times already.

I have taken a calling card and manage to speak to my family almost daily. Also have called up a few pals and spoken to them so far. Coming here has taught me to value the communication items that I have at home, because here there is a severe ration on communication :)

In the midst of the various discussions I have with pals on Gtalk and Yahoo Messenger, I observe that I seem to have become a more self-confident, self-aware and much less temperamental personality over time. It's not been a conscious effort. Just an evolution with time, I guess, as happens with everyone. But old habits do die hard and I chewed off someone yesterday for unprofessionalism. It wasn't intentional and I have tried very hard to suppress the irritation I feel when people expect to be spoon-fed, but it has been going on for some time since I was in the offshore team and somehow, yesterday I just said it straight to the person and he didn't take it too well, which isn't surprising, because when I talk straight, I myself know that I am very rude.

In other developments, I have submitted my papers for various processes and if all goes according to plan, I should be working here till end-2007 or beginning-2008.

I ask myself often, if I deserve this opportunity, if I am capable, if someone who deserves it more than me should have been given this opportunity? I can't seem to find the right answers to these questions. I can't claim to be the best there is in the IT industry in terms of knowledge or experience or even ability to grasp things. However I feel that my attitude towards work is second to none and I have always given work atleast my best shot, each time and every time, irrespective of the rewards waiting at the end of it or the lack thereof.

I remember the time during my Engineering days, when I have sat up all night to complete projects just for the love of it :) I really enjoyed trying out new programming things and learning new technologies. I used to turn on the FM radio all night long and work :) and a lot of times, my sleeping time would coincide with my dad's waking up time :) And after a few hours of sleep, I would be on my way to college.

Aah! Those days when the heart was pure and the mind fearless of people and circumstances... I truly know that I flew without wings...

One concrete dream I did have was to experience life to the fullest and travel and be someone in life. Nothing else was planned. Nothing was desired. I didn't know how I would live my dream. I guess I am still searching... From searching for greatness, I have evolved to searching for getting better...

Life has been very kind to me... And I shall not forget it...

Thank you...

4 comments:

Arun said...

Great notes and pretty heartfelt...though I think you should come for badminton more often :)

sruthi said...

am reading ur blog after a while now.... but i seem to like the way u write, 'more' wid each passing blog... direct 'dil se' maan!!! keep it up champ!!!

Maverick said...

@arun: haan yaar... baddy khelna hai... but probably this sat too will be spent at akihabara... will try to make it though :)

Maverick said...

@shru: heyyyy champ :)

i miss u a lot too :)

will keep calling from time to time...